10.22.2005
Faking It
Ok, I admit it. I faked it. I faked being happy. I do it all the time! I faked being friendly and I faked being interested in what people were talking about. I don't like this about myself-this whole faking it business. But it happens. Baby showers do it to everyone, and see, that's where I was today. I was at a baby shower that I didn't really want to be there. Today was the most perfect day for wearing pajamas and reading books and sipping tea all day. So I didn't want to go. Not to mention that I only knew two people - one being the host (who was happily running around keeping busy) and the other was the pregnant gal who the shower was for. And let's face it: Baby showers are Hell. OK OK, not that they are really that bad - but you get together a bunch of women, wearing their cute outfits, eating the delectable treats, talking about their shoes, commenting on their husbands, and ooohing and ahhhing over each new little unwrapped outfit --- it's more than I can handle!!! So what did I do? I faked it! You would too. You just can't be a raincloud at things like that. You have to put on your pastel sweaters and your sweet smile and just grin and bear it. If I ever have a shower, I'm going to make people wear their pajamas and we'll eat chocolate brownies and drink beer and just be ourselves. Although, I don't really like beer, it just sounded more authentic.
¶ 9:29 PM 
